Closing in on the change of digit in few months, am thinking that it may soon announce the end of fun-filled laziness and moving onto to oh-dear-you-are-sad mode. And then, am thinking that I think too much. Am too uptight. Or am I? Ask too many questions with self-imposed answers too. Almost like am living…
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Books and alone-ness
Rocked down to Kinokuniya with high hopes and best intentions to get a book, or something. Meandering through the strings of holiday shoppers, scanned the overbooked shelves (leaving an unnatural strain n the right side of the neck) for something interesting that will tide me over. Perhaps it was the post-gym exhaustion, did not survive…
Is it safe, yet?
2 days earlier, if someone had asked me what would have done if a trainee waitress breaks glass into my food, would have not known the answer. Yesterday, when faced with the real situation in a real cafe with real chips of glass, really did not know what to do. It was a routine request….
Technology, let down
“How are things between you and [insert my name]?” Cannot say it was not completely awkward. It is more of an embarrassment and less of a shock. In front of Chinese colleagues, the popup MSN message window revealed the less-than-ideal relationship between the two of us. Of course, the lady on the other end gave…
am·biv·a·lence
Think have learned a new word. A new definition of a word I once knew. the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions. Was told that I see the world in black and white. Felt kinda lost that…
Against tide of self
Running away proved to be more difficult than expected. Not looking for the exact resolution but at least something to get me by. It is just a number. Two digits in fact. Why does it bother me so much? It’s like I don’t have any more to offer. It’s like what is going on since…
Soon, not any sooner
I do, I really do. Do want to revive my inner thoughts. Like a lab rat that I cannot hold back, it tunnels through my head every 2.5714 seconds. The thrill of sliding down the tunnel of eternal sloth is growing on me like river moss. And it is not just any moss. Lime green…
Let’s be clear
Have to admit, was freaked out of my mind. Perhaps the glance did it. Sometimes it makes you wonder why things happen how it happens and a second or two really will make all the difference. When he came up behind me and said hello in a deep accent, already knew had to walk as…
Is this what you wanted?
As she leaned towards his longing face with a sigh, and whispered ‘I love you’, my feet touched the floor as hers did. We ran together in the direction away from what had appeared to be reality. It’s not the first time that am watching the movie. And it only hit me now. It hit…
Come on in
Don’t believe everything you see or hear. From the get-go, did intend to keep with this for a long time. Well long enough to be a conversational topic at boring dinner parties. By the 3rd entry, am already bored. Boredom is part of my genetic make-up. It cannot and should not be meddled with. Impulsively…