Was very prepared to pour my heart and let my eyes flood over. Honest. Know she means well and for some strange reason, she cares for me. But over the strawberry smoothies at Exmouth market, lied and felt totally ashamed of it.
No reason. Just wanted to visit you!
Didn’t even recognize the chirpy voice that cracked just at the end of the ridiculous response. Saw in her smile, knew that she didn’t believe me. Was quietly grateful that she let my immaturity slide.
On trip – Spent a lot of alone time thinking about stuff, about him, about the foreshadows, and about the what-ifs. Wrote a lot of stuff that was in hope to take the mind off the person and off the ten years.