“How are things between you and [insert my name]?”
Cannot say it was not completely awkward. It is more of an embarrassment and less of a shock. In front of Chinese colleagues, the popup MSN message window revealed the less-than-ideal relationship between the two of us. Of course, the lady on the other end gave her an idea of wiggling out of the situation. We went for dinner, just the two of us. First time in many nights spent in China.
Was definitely amused when she wanted to know if I, the small fry in her eyes, have any feedback for her. Who ever cared about me, really? Nevertheless, did pretty well and was decently polite. Not as difficult as I had imagined. Then again, never imagined that she would be that dumb to allow that kind of MSN popup.
Derf told me that was singled out as the fashion-blemish in KL. Insult added to disappointment, topped with a sour cream cherry that killed the sheriff. Oh whatever. In his good words, it hurts to see that her charms work. Truly it hurts. So much so that almost needed to walk out to get air.
Perhaps am not as cool as before. Perhaps am not that good. But hell, if they are charmed, I don’t need to feel bad anymore.
Need to cry louder. Need to sob harder. Need to yell longer. Need to hug myself, something which no one has done for a long time.
° not anymore