May. Never paid much attention to the fifth month. Being self-centered, June has always been a fav.
1. Received a few phone calls, went for a few face-to-face, had a cup too many of black lava smoothie, received one offer. Queried the boss, tendered the overdue resignation, sighed deeply twice. One, two, three, and so many phone calls that filled in as many gaps. One bad email to follow and one tongue-lashing came shortly after. In the same rut, again naturally.
Never intended to engage in the discussion. Perhaps subconsciously do want to believe her passionate words and facial twitch. Do want to believe that it has not been a waste of time. Funnily, the sympathetic looks that underscore a pity for someone who cannot get any where are still thrown in my way. Only difference – am able to reflect them to her and ds. It can happen, it has only been postponed.
2. Her skin was grey and limp. Her eyes were glazed and hunched over like the spine. Disheartened by their cowardice, family worked hard to nurse her. Sudden decline, emergency admission, chest infection. We will do what we can, within the confines of this ward. Hippocratic oath? 24/7 monitoring and rostering. Still hoping.
It is frightening. Ever since mom’s last long stay in the hospital, have not stepped into a hospital in the same capacity. Was not a pleasant feeling. The feeling lingers.
3. Toyed with the idea over coffee. Proposed and counter-proposed. Several text messages transpired across the SG-ID waters. Booked the flight, negotiated for accomodation, and received a warm welcome to a deserved rest&relax. A good month to travel down-under, a good month to shop in duty-free. A good month to get away.
Never been to Western Australia. The east coast has always been more alluring. Guess still is, if not for the friendly faces in the peaceful state. Excitement is an understatement.
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SATC movie pleases me. Reminded me of the person who left for the last time in my season 3 – he did not make it for the remaining episodes. So many shameless and selfish tugs at my weaknesses, when it was eventually unplugged, it is oddly alright. Life is a story, and on this, with a good ending.
° 2 more weeks, and too long