“How are things between you and [insert my name]?” Cannot say it was not completely awkward. It is more of an embarrassment and less of a shock. In front of Chinese colleagues, the popup MSN message window revealed the less-than-ideal relationship between the two of us. Of course, the lady on the other end gave…
Category: Journal
am·biv·a·lence
Think have learned a new word. A new definition of a word I once knew. the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions. Was told that I see the world in black and white. Felt kinda lost that…
Against tide of self
Running away proved to be more difficult than expected. Not looking for the exact resolution but at least something to get me by. It is just a number. Two digits in fact. Why does it bother me so much? It’s like I don’t have any more to offer. It’s like what is going on since…
Soon, not any sooner
I do, I really do. Do want to revive my inner thoughts. Like a lab rat that I cannot hold back, it tunnels through my head every 2.5714 seconds. The thrill of sliding down the tunnel of eternal sloth is growing on me like river moss. And it is not just any moss. Lime green…
Let’s be clear
Have to admit, was freaked out of my mind. Perhaps the glance did it. Sometimes it makes you wonder why things happen how it happens and a second or two really will make all the difference. When he came up behind me and said hello in a deep accent, already knew had to walk as…
Is this what you wanted?
As she leaned towards his longing face with a sigh, and whispered ‘I love you’, my feet touched the floor as hers did. We ran together in the direction away from what had appeared to be reality. It’s not the first time that am watching the movie. And it only hit me now. It hit…
Come on in
Don’t believe everything you see or hear. From the get-go, did intend to keep with this for a long time. Well long enough to be a conversational topic at boring dinner parties. By the 3rd entry, am already bored. Boredom is part of my genetic make-up. It cannot and should not be meddled with. Impulsively…
around the tired bend
How do I say when it is not meant to be heard? If only a lie is so pure that the very act of expression is welcomed. Sometimes it hurts my head, quite literally. Spent most of the weekends doing nothing. Online shopping fuelled most interest and even that, can only do so much to…
perhaps it’s time
I don’t recognise you. You don’t look depressed. Read through a bunch of old journal entries. Some of them tickled. Some, simply invoked odd facial expressions. Life has been too quick. Pace is speeding alongside the bullet train. Rain falls and leaves, so ever quickly. It’s painful to even wonder what had happened in the…